*Peanut* ([info]yellersub4) wrote,
@ 2005-10-26 20:54:00
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"you're the only one for me," she said.
"you're the one i want to spend the rest of my live with," she said.
"i love you more than anyone," she said.
"you're my favorite person in the world right now," she said.
"this is the best feeling in the world," she said.
"let's run away to montana," she said.
"i want to get better for us. i want to get better for me. i want us to be together," she said.

"nothing happened. everything's fine. it's not awkward," she said.


all lies.
broken words.
broken promises.
broken heart.

i'm trying so hard to keep myself together right now.




i thank my stars for alex and jess who picked my pieces up from the talbot floor last night, hugged me together, and called my mom. thank you, stars.

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[info]viscosushi
2005-10-27 01:00 am UTC (link)
Let me help.

Please.

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[info]yellersub4
2005-10-27 04:54 am UTC (link)
just by offering to help-you've helped.

thanks, baby.

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[info]heatherbooty
2005-10-27 02:10 am UTC (link)
me too, eryka, me too.

i love you.

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[info]yellersub4
2005-10-27 04:59 am UTC (link)
heat, i really miss you right now. i'm writing this in a comment because i have not the will to look up your email addy and i'm just too tired to talk right now. for some reason i just can't get over the fact that we became perfect friends right at the time we were separated. the distance is just getting so big and i really want a heatbug hug. i want to help and talk to you and comfort you and make you chicken soup and i want to take care of you and i want you to take care of me...i just don't know how.


i wish with all my heart that i could bring all of my friends into one big room right now so i could hug every one of them and then maybe this pain will lessen. i just wish that would happen. wishing. i'll be wishing for a long, long time. i wish that had a friend to wipe the tears away right now...hugs from everyone. i just wish.

this is me sending my love to you because it seems as though this is the only medium we'll have for a while. i'll road trip to chicago just to cuddle with you. someday. please.
love forever. to a friend who always is there no matter the time or distance apart. i miss you, heat.

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[info]heatherbooty
2005-10-27 05:17 am UTC (link)
baby peanut love, thank you so much for your im, and for your comment. im so sorry we kept missing each other on the phone, i cant believe we havent talked in so long. so much shit has gone on, so much shit. im doing better. i can hardly believe it. im grateful that i can go through a day and not feel anxious or sad. one day at a time.

and it hurts me that you feel what ive felt, that youre hurting, that i cant be there to hug you and help you. you are such a wonderful human being, and youre right--we became perfect friends right when we were separated. fucking rediculous. but i am so thankful. youve always, always been there. here.

lets keep in touch any way we know how, livejournal included. get yourself out here. itll be good for your heart. i miss you too, peanut, and i love you so much.

you just call out my name and you know whereever i am ill come running to see you again. winter spring summer of fall all you have to do is call and ill be there.

i miss you so fucking much.

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[info]themuffinann
2005-10-27 06:09 am UTC (link)
::muffin hugs?::
::lots and lots of them?::

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[info]yellersub4
2005-10-27 06:55 pm UTC (link)
thank you, ann. thank you so much.

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[info]harmony6182
2005-10-29 02:55 am UTC (link)
hey hunnie:)

i love you and im here.....always.

life is crazy sometimes....love is crazy.

i miss you

i love you:)

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